Whoop de do dah

I always want to start with some kind of deep introspective moment that leads into something I can be proud of. This post is not going to happen if I hold myself to that high standard. I need to lower my standards to get a pattern going, then I can focus on improving the quality. So here goes.

Mildly unimportant update, I no longer hold my job at McDonalds, I work for a call center, for Geek Squad now. I fix level one computer problems. Whoo. Onto the writing that no one will read!

30 minute daily freewrite

When I dream, I dream of you.

To the me who lives without fear of what I said yesterday

and what waits when I open my eyes tomorrow

I dream of you.

In you I see my doubts are few and false shadows

weak kneed in the light of your confident smile

I dream of you.

You, who spends the night not tossing, back and forth

with dreams of dread and looming future fears

I dream of you.

Running ahead of who I am, painfully past my reach

just far enough ahead that I cannot catch your shadow

I dream of you.

11/07/14

I want to wonder, wandering

aimless in my world, made up.

To depart from my day to day,

return to defenseless dreaming,

Break free dance with my oldest friend

etherial entity who was called by all

Imaginary. Right will be right

in the way my friends used to be

forever.

So part of it was a free write poem, the other half an edit on a poem I found in a notebook when attempting to clean up my room. I’m not really pleased with the second one but it is what it is. I didn’t embark on a quest to write a poem tonight but it did come out. I guess listening to hipster licence free music on spotify make you do that at times.

Goodnight, hope to be back in a pattern of attempting to write every night.